@Regrann from @snadhani -A dear friend and super blogger @debasrideb started a kickass campaign #beyournakedself where you could openly talk about your 'flaws' and coping mechanism.
All my life, I have grown up with insecurities with the way I look; always felt inferior. It may seem otherwise if you have met me recently (i.e the last 3 years of my life because I decided to #beyournakedself). Rewinding the clock 12 years:
I was loved by the Sun God a bit more, a victim of terrible acne, hyper-pigmentation, facial and body hair; hair comparable to a really old, bald broom. Basically, I was a compilation of everything that could ruin a teenage girl's life and to a great extent it did mine as well. Oh, and I always had extremely broad shoulders and words like' body builder' 'man', 'mard', 'bhai' were just some of my nicknames. I can't deny it hurt BAD. I didn't qualify for any 'conventional' standards of beauty.
To become 'conventionally pretty' I consulted a dermatologist and gynaecologist (because PCOS). Admitting, my skin cleared up but my body and head didn't. These medicines REALLY mess with your hormones! I became aggressive, violent, and perpetually depressed. It was time to make a choice; good skin, or mental peace and happiness. After fighting some inner battles, I chose the latter.
With time I realized there's so much more to life than looking 'pretty'. I realized being different was good, in fact GREAT. I can make people laugh, have a good conversation, makes jokes at my own self, combine clothes like a conjurer and that sets me apart.
I wanted to fit in earlier, only to realize I was never meant to be, and I am glad I understood. I still suffer from pigmentation and acne but I choose happiness, call myself 'Rajkumar' when the pigmentation on my upper lip worsens.
I am still bald and a frizz ball. Still ridiculed and called 'less' womanly or straight up a 'man' for chopping off my hair. But, I am my own self. I now let my personality do more talking than my skin or hair. I am not anymore prejudiced by clones.
I am still as 'manly' as ever but my kind of 'pretty' and 'feminine';original.
One word: You can't fit a square peg into a round hole.