I didn't think this moment would come as soon as it did; you went downhill so fast that I wasn't prepared.
From the second you came into our lives it was a surprise as well as a challenge.
You had a hard life; that much showed, but no one truly knew your story.
You couldn't speak, you couldn't tell us what you'd been through prior to us taking you in, but we all just knew you'd seen the worst in people.
For years you were mean & many people kept their distance from you - We didn't blame them; they didn't want to get hurt.
After all, you'd hurt me many times, & being a sensitive person, it was too easy to take your lashing out personally. However, I knew that I shouldn't take your actions to heart - You were so scared, felt threatened, & confused.
For so long you didn't even know what to make of me, especially when I wasn't myself - I know I wasn't the nicest either, & I am so sorry for that.
That being said, this past year was the best. We became very close & understanding of each other.
You even made friends with some important people in my life, & I was so proud of how far you'd come since 2010.
You trusted me & I believe you loved me.
I love you, too. I always will. I hope you knew that til the very end.
Just as I held you in my arms this morning, I'll hold you in my heart forever.
You weren't alone today, you were with me.
You were a good dog, & you will always be my friend & my family.
I will be forever grateful that we were able to care for you, give you the home that you needed, & that we had the opportunity to know you for 7 years. This house is going to feel so empty without you, Benjiboy.