- i had to do a little nyc hospital tour in the early a.m. as they couldn’t even tell me the correct name of the hospital they were taking him to. took two hours to finally find him. then i remembered that it also took two hours for them to finally get to my old apt in 2015 after i called 911 and begged them to come get the guy who was masturbating in front of my window, looking inside through where the blinds couldn’t cover, about the 1/20 of the bottom, sitting down on the ground, looking up inside, knocking on that window and saying, “let me in, let me in-“ -
what can i even say about all the things that happened when i lived in upstate new york as a high school student? nada. absolutely nada. all they did was “reporting”. those cameras inside the train station, probably purchased with your taxes, were some basic decorations. they made use of the cameras right away and figured everything out in Seattle when things happened to me. why couldn’t nypd?
i don’t even really feel anything anymore when stuff happens; i don’t. yea, yeah yeah. it was my fault that i didn’t know how to protect myself. i should’ve learned jiu jitsu or something, knowing all this, having had to learn this as a teenager, right -
on the way home, i kept seeing my younger, teenager self that couldn’t focus on anything anymore. i needed to leave. as soon as possible... it was quite a morning, and i still seem to be very distracted by it all. #fuckyouverymuch