I had a great time on this shoot. The crew was great and I felt so pretty. Yet when I got home something didn't feel right. Why did I need a photo shoot to make me feel pretty being pregnant? It made me a little sad and I realized much I was being robbed of enjoying pregnancy and the beauty that God designed through pregnancy.
It's true it's not always this "pretty". Sometimes (lots of times) it's awkward, uncomfortable, confusing, worry-filled, especially if it's your first time. This process has ironically taught me to love MYSELF first through all the changes and as I do I'm learning to love the babies growing inside me.
The way God works his love and healing always baffles and humbles me. As his spirit brings new life and love to mine, it flows through me to my girls. Feeling this love grow makes my heart burst with joy and tears that I get to be a part of his loving the babies inside of me. It's a paradox of feeling joy at God's gift and in the same moment a deep ache knowing there's no way I deserve to be apart of this, but he's giving it regardless. ❤️#relentlesslove #thankyouJesus #icantdothiswithoutHIM