vul·ner·a·bil·i·ty (n) the quality or state of being exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally.
I’ve been thinking a lot about vulnerability lately.. what it means and why most people hate being in a position of vulnerability. I would say that my passion for fitness (“body-building”) stemmed from a very vulnerable point in my life. I had been in an emotionally abusive relationship where I was constantly emotionally attacked. Luckily I was strong enough to get out of that relationship, but it did leave me scarred and feeling weak. So what did I do? I threw myself into fitness and building my body so I wouldn’t ever (physically) feel weak or vulnerable again! Was this the best way handle the situation? Maybe not. BUT my god it helped me get through a difficult time and helped me heal.
Now I’m a very different stage in my life… I am physically and mentally strong, I know who I am and where I’m going (well, most days😜). However, I still fear emotional vulnerability. It’s scary to let new people “in.” To expose yourself to the possibility of being hurt. The more I think about my fears and sort through my feelings, the more I realize so many of them are unfounded. If you find yourself holding back in relationships, ask yourself why! Most likely there is A LOT more to gain then there is to lose. Address your fears and live life to the fullest! Say yes to the love and relationships you deserve 💙
Lens by @marksingerman
Glam by @karenpangMUA
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