One of the most overwhelming things about coming back to the East Coast is I never get to see everyone I want, or do everything I want. (Like most trips places.. life gets in the way.) For me, family comes first.. and it kind of makes me sick when I travel so far for them & barely get to see them. I won't make solid plans with friends while I'm here because work and family take up 90% of my time. I wish I could hang with every homie, adventure down every block, and catch up with everyone I want too.. but it's impossible and it's extremely overwhelming. .
My body can't keep up with the lifestyle I wanna live.. so theres a lot of sleeping and self care time I have to slip in too. I feel awful saying no, or I don't have time... My life is a last minute plan. I'm the friend that hits you up at 9pm to see how the rest of your night looks. I'm the homie who understands when your life is busy.. and I expect the same in return. .
Please NEVER take it personal if I don't have time. This trip has been extremely emotionally tolling. My grandmother has been in the hospital/rehab and that hit me hard enough in the face saying HOW MUCH TIME DO YOU HAVE LEFT WITH THEM. || I'm sorry life is so difficult & I'm sorry I'm just on my grind right now. I promise there will be more trips back and more time for adventures to be made. Im tired of getting mini panic attacks because I feel bad that I can't see everyone I want this time around. You blink and life goes by. 👀