“She conquered her demons and wore her scars like wings.” ~Atticus
I’m not always the best at opening up about my challenges, but I know that everybody faces them and sometimes sharing a bit feels right. Two years ago I underwent a life-changing intestinal surgery. I have struggled with chronic illnesses throughout my life, from several GI disorders to fibromyalgia to autoimmune/neuromuscular conditions, some of which I am still trying to get figured out. There are many days that I feel super overwhelmed by everything in combination with my busy schedule and all of the work I am completing for my internship. There are also many days that I am overwhelmed with gratitude for all that I CAN do, for all of the beautiful people and opportunities I have in my life, and for how far I have come in these past two years.
In terms of yoga, I developed a sort of love-hate relationship with my practice after my surgery. I became frustrated with the challenges I faced while attempting poses that were once easier, and especially with the days that pain has prevented me from practicing at all. What I am learning now is the importance of embracing the opportunity that I have to work with my body, and empower myself through yoga each day. There are some days that gentle stretching and breath work are the extent of my ability, and others that I can flow in and out of strong poses for what feels like forever. Accepting my body as it is and learning to work with my limitations has been a process that I will only continue to grow from, and, for that, I am forever grateful.