Whoa! A bit overwhelmed, a whole lot sad, and full of all kinds of emotions from numbness, confusion, appreciativeness relief, and aloneness.
No matter how good or how bad your relationship with your parent may have been, no one can prepare you from the loss you feel when that bond begins to disintegrate and fade away from you forever. [My mother] is on her last days here on earth...and all I have ever argued with her with over over, cried about, and wished for her to be no longer matter. All that matters is the now. This moment, that I still get to kiss her face still warm from life; Tell her that I love her and let the sound of her words, "I love You" formed by strained breath land on me, heal all the wounds inflicted, and rock me to peace forever. Xo