expectation — the idea, the thought, that something should or could or will happen. how funny it is that we hold ourselves to things like this, fully knowing that anything can change, anything can happen at any point in time. what we have today we may not tomorrow and what we have tomorrow might not be what we asked for.
this year i’ve learned to let go. to not to hold myself, or others for that matter, to such things. everything feels a little easier when you just let life happen. when you go with the flow. when you don’t allow yourself to get wrapped up in things that may just never be a thing at all. i had ideas in my head of how life would be by now — where i would be, who i would become. looking back i realize how wrong i was. wrong in that nothing is what i thought it would be, myself included. i’ve really come into myself in ways that i never could have imagined. i was wrong in that i am nowhere even close to the picture i painted in my head of 28, almost 29.
it’s okay to wish for things, it’s okay to want things to turn out a certain way. it’s when you’re not open to other possibilities, other beginnings and other endings, that it becomes a problem. challenge yourself to find peace in that openness. and while it may feel a bit scary, realize how beautiful it is, how strong you are, and how resilient you become. learn to let go and i promise you will have so many more moments, so many more experiences, things you never dreamed of — maybe some that will even change your life. allow the universe to guide you. have faith that things will work out the way they are supposed to. have faith that at the end of it all you will be exactly where you are meant to be. you will.
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