Last July was my breaking point. I had a complete nervous break down. I hated my life, my body, how I felt and my mental health. It all came down to my weight. It was rock bottom. I had to make a change, and I needed to do it this time for myself.... it takes been 10 months since that day!! I scrambled through my thousands of pictures this morning to find the picture I took the day after my breaking point. I remember taking this picture. I remember fighting back the tears staring a girl who hated herself but knowing this would be the last time I ever felt this way about myself. What was about to come, was going to be hard and take a lot of determination.
The second picture was taken just the other day and this morning I paired them together. This truly gives you a view on determination and changing yourself to who you want to become. I still have goals and areas of my body I need to work on. I can look at this picture and truly say I love my body again ❤️ Though over the years I flip flopped. I was either skinny or over weight. I never knew how to find that happy medium and I've finally found it!! I've found how to focus on being fit and not skinny, but neither over weight. In my head, I'll always be the 'fat girl' no matter how I look in a mirror which is a total mental game on my part. The years of being overweight, the years of being teased has created a mental block that I will always be self conscious and I will always feel overweight.
Goals over the rest of this year... 1. Rewire my brain ... I am fit, I am healthy
2. Tone Tone Tone
3. Consistent gym time
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