💰💰💰 I recently started an abundance/money journal and am trying to chart and re-create my relationship with wealth.
I started writing about the *inner* things I feel having more money would give me (more freedom, for example) ...and security came right up to the top. I want more money because I want to feel more safe & secure.
This is constantly an issue for me, bc regardless of whether I am making lots of money or if money is scarce - my emotions and feelings around my money hardly change.
I never feel safe, secure, or in control. I never feel confident or taken care of by my income regardless of its size.
Something doesn't add up.
So I started to write down some moments or instances where I felt totally *secure* and safe. (Honestly, this was really hard, as there weren't many). THEN I started to write down things I could do to feel more secure overall in my life and with my finances. Which was also a bit of a challenge.
So I googled "How to build a feeling of safety & security" to get some inspiration or potential action steps.
And what comes up? The top results are almost ALL about how to make a child feel safe and secure. ...so I started reading them and, wow, my inner child needs some work. attention. nurturing. Everything that you'd do to make a (sick, orphaned, abused, etc) child feel safe are things I deeply need to practice on my self. It brought up a lot surrounding my childhood and trauma around abusive relationships in many forms - and how it manifests in the attachment style of both my personal relationships and my relationship to money.
It's evident I have work to do around fostering a feeling and environment of safety for myself in general in order to start feeling & being more secure re: money.
This felt big for me... and now I'm curious.... Q: What is the deeper/inner thing that you feel having more money would give YOU? (Freedom, Security, Power, etc) and then... how does this relate to your inner child or literally, your childhood?