2018 was one of my realest years yet.
I started my electrical apprenticeship that has lead me to so many opportunities including new friendships, more licenses and qualifications, new adventures and challenges. I have such an amazing boss and so many friendly workers.
I have ended up struggling with my depression and anxiety. Having way too many anxiety/panic attacks each day and my depression showing up in a lot or new and different forms that I have never dealt with before and taking days and weeks to recognise it. There was days/weeks were I’d just isolate myself from everyone and everything and just try it make it through to the next day. I got so numb and felt like I was drowning that I simply couldn’t care what the consequences were. I nearly quit both my jobs that I absolutely loved only because it was way too much. And I’d like to thank my family and some very close friends because I truly believe I would not still be here today if it wasn’t for them.
The gym has helped me in a lot of areas in my life, from my mental health to my physical health. It has been a long year of discovering who I want to be, who I want to be surrounded by and a lot of self reflection. I am no where near the top but I can make sure that this year, I will be disciplined in every area, selfish with myself and do nothing but what brings me happiness. I’d like to thank the very small amount of family and friends that have been there for me, supported me, had patience with me and helped me in anyway they could.