Once I was asked what I would do if I knew I only had five more minutes to live; I replied that I would listen to Nirvana's All Apologies for the last time. I always say that we can’t judge the pains and passion of others because people feel in different ways, and what makes my heart beat stronger means nothing to you. I knew I would see the original Nirvana members because Krist composed a Foo Fighters song and for me that would be the high point of life. Never, never in a multitude of lives or parallel universe I would imagine listening to Nirvana live, for real. The first 2 seconds of Serve the Servants, my favorite song of all the songs that exist, were possibly the 2 most intense seconds of my life. For me, it was very strong. Very strong. I think the feeling of a punch in the stomach might be similar to that. I know everyone expects me to be vibrating and happy but in fact I still do not quite understand, and I'm still like a plant with no reaction at all. Well, for those who are reading this maybe nothing made sense. Honestly, it doesnt make much sense to me either. But it's music, right? It does not have to make sense for you to understand it. I’m not ok. I dont even know what I do with life from now on. I saw Nirvana live. Nothing will ever be as incredible (literally) as that.
Kurt, we miss you.