528 posts   11,339 followers   125 followings

Mental Health | F I T N E S S  #StrongerSelf Working out saved my life. Literally🏋🏻‍♀️ We have the power to do hard things Dare yah to read a caption NEW PODCAST EPISODE⬇️

per·tur·ba·tion /ˌpərdərˈbāSH(ə)n/
1. anxiety; mental uneasiness
2. a deviation of a system, moving object, or process from its regular or normal state or path, caused by an outside influence
Two radically different definitions
Two different paths to take
Which path do you take?
“Caleb, you don’t have what it takes.”
no caleb you do.
“Caleb, your vision for the world, your life, your hopes and dreams, none of it is really real”
I will continue to fight for it anyway
“Caleb, you will always feel alone”
Caleb you are loved. You are loved. And there is so much love out there. You can always find that love for yourself. So dig deep. Its always been there.
Fear protects us from hearing what we need to see. Fear can restricts us, but it can also be a sign that we on the right track to where we need to be going in our lives.
That we are really being brave in our life.
That we are doing something big✨
My life changed when I realized that bravery wasn’t an absence of fear, but an overwhelming presence of it
and continuing to move forward
and stand strong with pride
knowing who we are
and who we want to be.
As I go into my workouts, I always visualize the man I know I want to be
Knowing that I have the power to challenge my fears and write a different story
We all do✨
I am so thankful for everyone who has commented on my bravery on this platform and that I have inspired them.
So thank you.
But the biggest secret is that no one really feels safe.
We are all just the same scared kids inside.
so lets fight together fam💪🏻
lets push to grow outside box of who we think we should or shouldn’t be
and leta search deep inside of us for the (wo)man (person) we have always wanted to be
who we know we can be✨

Nowadays I feel like “influencer” is being thrown around here and there🙋🏻‍♂️
It is pitched as an idea that anyone can be one.
And its true. And its not just through social media, it is through life itself. But sometimes I really question what “influence” really means🤔
Social media has exacerbated our desperation and need to be validation from the outside world
a number of likes📲
a number of followers
at what point does the love for ourselves depend on the change of pixalated numbers on our phone screen?
when does it end?
we all just want to be loved🙋🏻‍♂️
The hard truth is that no amount of validation from others will ever make you feel enough. We need love to function without a doubt, but we will always have the hardest time accepting this love if we don’t pull a immense amount of appreciation and respect into ourselves first.
When we can’t find that love for ourseles, then social media becomes this biggest trap for being exposed to world where it seems like everyone else does. Especially when we aren’t showing up as a person we want/love to be.
Its those feeling of worthlessness that really get yah sometimes😔
Besides the concept of self love, to really have “influence,” on social media, but really just in your life, comes with a certain responsibilty to do good.
Unfortunately, we live in a time where that is not the same.
Where the same trap explained above robs us of our ability to really bring the best of not just out of ourselves, but others as well💪🏻
A influencer is someone who holds influence over someone. Whether we use this for good or not is up to us.
We are the leaders of our generation. It doesn’t matter what your following is.
We are all influencers in our own microcosm of a world.
I encourage you to think about your impact, and to really ask what it means to be a leader🦸🏻‍♂️🦸🏽‍♀️
For me, a leader is someone who is able to help people feel empowered. To inspire a feeling to help others feel better about themselves and one day help the world do the same.
What do you think? How do we best set an example for this beautiful f*cking world to come? While at the same time, finding love for ourselves?🤔

Its weird that I haven’t been focused on trying to achieve a certain physique goal yet I am progressing and loving my results📈🤷🏻‍♂️
I actually think thats why I am having a lot of success. In the past I was always focusing on trying to make improvement every session📝 Hope that I would see “new gains” in the mirror or that the scale would change depending if I was bulking or cutting.
Yeah I stopped that too🙅🏻‍♂️
I stopped the obsessive looking at myself in the mirror, squinting to see if any progress has been made. A good pump here, a good pump there💪🏻Some days I felt I looked great and others rather shitty. A picture with good editing, that could do the trick. Did I progress with my strength? No?Then what does that say about my work ethic?What I am doing wrong?🙇🏻‍♂️
Yeah I stopped seriously doing this line of questioning. It inevitably lead me to seriously doubting myself and having a negative self image despite how much I was actually “wining.”
I had to redefine what it meant to “win.”🤔
Today, fitness for me is defined by showing up and training hard. It is about prioritizing protein and micronutrients, but making sure that I am balanced with my foods🍪
It means to stop checking myself in the mirror, or basing my success in the gym based off of how I lift🏋🏻‍♀️
Your workouts change.
Your body changes.
And yet I feel so free knowing that fitness at its core is not a body nor a weight, but a feeling of empowerment that you can do anything you set your mind to🙌🏻
It is through this change in mindset that I have been able to train harder, find my love for training, and not get lost in the negative downward spiral of criticism and self-defeat that I know we all get into sometimes💪🏻
I believe in yah🙋🏻‍♂️

Sometimes, I have to sit in a dark room with no one but myself
to overcome the fears that hold me down
the ones I react to
and continue to run away from.
to really look at the unknown
and vastness of empty space around you
and realize there is freedom that exists✨
Sometimes, I have to let go
to gain the things I never had
No more🙅🏻‍♂️hanging out
with the people who tore me down
No more🙅🏻‍♂️hanging out
with the person in my head who said I couldn’t
No more🙅🏻‍♂️hanging out
with the things that held me back
We are limited, yes
but we are also unstoppable🙋🏻‍♂️
with infinitive power
to change the world
but ourselves first and foremost...
I find my strength in the gym🏋🏻‍♀️
in the depth of my body
and in a place unknown
I slowly find myself
becoming the man I always wanted to be.
Not afraid of my own discomfort
who is willing to fight through whatever battle
to fall sometimes
but continues to show up.
Persistence wins.
Courage wins✨
Inside your head exists the greatest fight you will ever take🙇🏻‍♂️
where the light shines
a shadow casts
where shadow dawns
a light persists
I have to let go
to gain the things I never had...
I believe in you✨

I forget how incredibly powerful our mind can be⬇️
It can tear us down
or build us up.
convince us that we have lost.
or win through our defeats.
create problems
find impeccable solutions✨
Mental health really just starts with a conversation with ourselves, asking how we are doing🙋🏻‍♂️
Its simple but honestly hard to do.
Where do we even begin?
Mood fluctuates.
Life fluctuates.
So how do we really know how we feel?
Or perhaps an even better question: why?🤔
All confusing sometimes.
BUT I think trying is still a start
even when we don’t have all the answers.
Ill be honest and say that talking to someone about them can be really helpful.
Especially one that really just listens.
Yeah I get it, we all got feelings😏
But we need space (and people) to really validate them🙇🏻‍♂️
Our mind is what makes the difference between being a victim of life’s challenges or being a figher who will stop at nothing to make their life better, no matter the sacrifice🙅🏻‍♂️
But sometimes we need help. And so what?
We aren’t any weaker for reaching out for support. I would argue that we are stronger because we actually admitting when we can use their help🙋🏻‍♂️
And admitting when you need help is the hardest part.
But please don’t let fear stop you from living your best life💪🏻
Strong Mind.
Strong Life.
But we are always stronger
We got this✨

The “clutch” reality is thats every action we take today has a ripple effect that not only affects our lives, but everyone we touch🙋🏻‍♂️
I believe we all have immense power in the world💪🏻 We have the ability to become immense change makers in the world and it has nothing to do with the number of followers you have but more with carrying a bravery to chase after something bigger than yourself...
To stand up for your truths, its not just an act of verbal language. It is built through a foundation of thoughtful intuition and guided action. To sacrifice for something bigger than ourselves, that is a true leader✨
“You, you set the standard for the future generation”
Listen to “Breakfast” by Jaden Smith ft. A$AP Rocky.
Its been on non-stop for me.
I am a huge advocate of listening📲 to messages that really fuel your fire🔥 We get so little time to really be with ourselves. We must surround ourself with the right language📝 if we really want to do the things we are scared to do
Even if that starts with going outside of your comfort zone with little things
Even with as something as simple as the gym🏋🏻‍♀️
Everything started there for me.

In our own little world, it is becoming a global crisis to not follow through on our word. Not neccessarily to others but really to ourselves🤷🏻‍♂️
Integrity arises by staying true to ourselves. Self-confidence really just comes by persistenly dong this sh*t over and over and over again. Its like building credability with a very deep part of ourselves. To really listen deep to the words we chronically neglect😭
It’s never too late to build a wall of integrity for yourself. I say “wall” beacuse this integrity will utlimately teach you to fend off doing sh*t in your life that really doesn’t matter🙅🏻‍♂️Meaning the things that aren’t relevant to your goals and needs as a human being on this earth. The sh*t that keeps you busy to validate a sense of importance that really falls short when we starting listening to a deeper voice that is advocating for something different🙋🏻‍♂️
A different life.
A different you.
A better you✨
It’s never too late to build a wall of integrity for yourself. Because really, it just starts with one decision to stay in line with that integrity.
And even when you f*ck up😔
You get back on.
You keep taking action.
You keep layering the bricks.
And then another.
And another.
And another.
And soon, you become f*cking unstoppable with no matter what you set your mind to😏💪🏻
Every journey starts with one step🤷🏻‍♂️ As cheesy as it sounds, its what I always tell myself when I feel too intimated to take a step forward in the direction I know need to go in🙋🏻‍♂️
I am begging you
to work on yourself
because if you don’t
who will?
I believe in you✨

There are times where the pain hurts
like really hurts😔
you know the times when it gets hard to breath
you feel your heart pounding
you find your natural instinct
begging you to stop the pain
but you try your best to find the right words
and scramble them in right combination
to motivate yourself to move forward
despite the pain😏
Sometimes its no words at all.
Training has been really dope lately. I have been on top of my cardio and been feeling strong with weight training 4-5 times a week💪🏻 Boxing 2 times a week and eating well (but still allow balance fam). I have been able to get stronger but still maintain leanness. Because I have been able to find my love for training, for what at its roots it is suppose to be, I am able to challenge both my mind and body, to grow...
Life really isn’t much different🙋🏻‍♂️
Part of the experience of lifting is knowing when not push past pain and when to continue moving forward
Sometimes we have trouble knowing between the two🤷🏻‍♂️
Knowing when we should stop our efforts and seek help.
Knowing really what “too far” is, to the point where it could really hurt us,
Learning what the “sweet spot” is after years of pushing yourself
Not letting your comfort zone convince you
that you are safe🙅🏻‍♂️
Because no one really is.
When I really struggled with a lot of confidence in my life😔I knew that the gym🏋🏻‍♀️was the one place I could go that could always make me feel strong. And to this day, I train to help me feel empowered to do whatever I set my mind to🙌🏻
Strong Mind🧠
Strong Life💪🏻

“Happiness” doesn’t limit itself to positively experienced emotions🤷🏻‍♂️...
It also includes the really hard times😔The ones that push you to think different about yourself and the world. The ones that mold, and shape, and define the (wo)man (person) you are✨
I think sometimes we get so caught up in always trying to be happy. It creates an unrealistic expectation that we can’t live to🙅🏻‍♂️We grow such a negative associoation with negative ones that we begin to fear them, and it doesn’t allow us to grow from them. Negative emotions, as deeply unpleasent as they are, always tell us something about our reality that we need to listen to🙇🏻‍♂️ If we are always scared of it, I am afraid we will always be running from a life that can be so beautiful through it all...
I smile today because
I am proud of where I have come from✨
It made me into who I am and because of this, I wouldn’t take a single moment of any suffering away.
I smile today because
I know that my relationship with myself is the most important one of all✨
There comes a point in your life where you have to start working hard for your happiness in your life and advocating for yourself to start winning
to grow out of an inflexible set of rules in life that you strictly follow that really limit you
the ones you might not be fully aware of🤔
the ones that you will have to start making hard decisions and “gear up” to make some massive f*cking change.
I smile today because
my honest truth is that you don’t even have to believe in yourself to “win”✨
you just gotta act like you do.
I smile today because
it works every f*cking time🙇🏻‍♂️
you matter✨
and we got this fam💪🏻

1)) I HAD TO LET GO OF THIS GOAL (lol)📈🙅🏻‍♂️🤔
I focused on progressing with my lifts in the gym🏋🏻‍♀️. I stopped looking at my body all the time. I stopped weighing myself obsessively. I focused on eating high protein🍗 and eating in a slight caloris surplus. I focused on getting in my sleep, training intensely, and frequently during the week. I committed myself to just sticking to a plan and working out of a place of love and pride of what I was doing each day rather than hate and despisement of not just where I was in my fitness journey but really who I was as a person. I gave myself a massive hug (metaphorically) and immense compassion🙌🏻. Because having a perfectionistic standard where everything goes right, I don’t mess up, and I always execute is a reality no one can ever be successful in. I needed to LET GO of a lot of sh*t before I could have sh*t come into my life. You feel?🤷🏻‍♂️
Yes I wanted to feel more confident in myself, but really I just wanted to love myself more🙌🏻 I couldn’t have said that at the time because I just wanted “more gains” and didnt understand it all but truthfully I just loved how working out made me feel and I wanted to feel unstoppable✨
So I stuck with that.
My reasons had to go deeper than just the attainment of a physique. I simply couldn’t win if I didn’t learn to dig deep during the million times I just wanted to say “f*ck it.”🤬

Its not rainbows and sunshine. It never is.
I doubted myself more😔 than I ever have. I cried, “gave up,” and struggled more than ever. But thats what happens when you do big sh*t with your life. You always find a way to get through it all.
One step at a time.
One day at a time.
I started believing a better life was possible. I starting believing I could change and I allowed myself to feel the pain and incredible discomfort that true self growth (change) brought into my life🙇🏻‍♂️
Thats when everything changed.
And I know that you can do it too.
I believe in you✨

When I started on my fitness journey🏋🏻‍♀️ I wanted to figure out all the ways that I could “accelerate” my progress to getting bigger, leaner, stronger…
Since most of my inspiration came from youtube, I was always comparing myself to others😏
Comparison alone is not harmful. I was inspired afterall. And I learned to set higher standards for myself when I really lacked any sort of confidence in myself (had no goals really)...
But there can be a point where the comparison is harmful. On instagram, it is even easier to decieve. The perfecting lighting, pump, day of the week where you physique looks insane, etc..
The worst part is that WE even compare ourselves to this physique, even when we know its not our normal selves🤷🏻‍♂️
I don’t always have a showing six-pack😔Most of the time I walk around and my stomach protrudes if I actually relax. I am not fat and I am not bloated. This is simply what is looks like in its relaxed state
I knew there was a problem when I was developing an unhealthy relationship with my body in how it looked a certain way. And even before the lighting and all the great pumps and days of the weeks… there was always… ALWAYS more to improve📈
There will come a point where you realize that fitness is more than just a physique🙇🏻‍♂️Its a way of life that is guided by how you feel about yourself. Yes, of course your physique is a part of it but so are these qualities: resiliency, drive, forward-thinking, open-minded, grit, and immense compassion✨
When I started focusing on everything I had rather than didn’t have, the uphill battle for more “gains” dissapeared and I was slowly able to find a love for training again.🏋🏻‍♀️
And ironically, when the stress went down, and I stopped focusing on it as much, I actually starting making more progress than I ever had📈
I hope that you can find your middle ground.
And fight.
Fight for you✨

I use everyday as an opportunity to believe in myself just a little more⬇️🙋🏻‍♂️
I find that the more ambitious I am with my goals, the harder I have to work towards my goals, not just in terms of the hours I put in, but the mindsets I have to overcome to get me to where I want to be📈
The more this happens, the more I have to face DOUBT as a mental concept.
But I feel so lucky that I have the gym🏋🏻‍♀️, because it gives me more and more opportunities to challenge this every single time I go.
Its is through the challenge of doubt that I ironically end up believing in myself a little more.
Its a beautiful thing✨
I am not always successful🙅🏻‍♂️
But this is also beautiful.
Because then it just creates more doubt that I get to overcome and conquer.
But I don’t always know how.
And the beautiful opportunies infinity arise🙋🏻‍♂️
It has taken me years to develop this mindset. I think as an adaptive strategy, it was the only way that I could really move myself out of a place of victimization and into a place of glory and active progress📈
Life is beautiful. Even through the ugliness, it will become✨
That is the one message I hate the most to hear in the moment of adversity, but always admit and mumble under my breath that its been true with every adversity I have ever overcome💪🏻
Find the beauty✨

Most Popular Instagram Hashtags