Is it weird to Repost your own post? Yesterday was my 12 year anniversary living in Brooklyn. I've been struggling with how to mark it bc normally I would take a long walk with my sweet girl who would have been 14 yesterday and 📸 another year around the ☀️ together. I cry for her every day at some point or another. Mornings and night are hardest, a terrible ache instead of the presence of her sweet spirit. But I do feel each year here should be celebrated.. bc it is so very hard to live here and because where we grow is where we live and I believe in growth. So here's my bday post. It speaks to this anniversary too. 💖💪🏼💖
What's the hashtag? #thisis fill in your age? Well, #thisIs36 Each year I get older I feel physically stronger, more grounded and more centered as a person which also means more alive in my body. This year I really left all my body BS behind. I can't even conjure it up on a bad day👊🏼 guilt over eating sounds like trying to remember what it felt like to visit another dimension, body hate? Did I really ever do that? It's like a vague vague dream from long ago.
Instead I'm filled with the sense of a better known, better understood, better discovered, lived in, loved body. A happy body, a sensual body, a strong, capable, joyful body. A body that this year danced in Brussels, ate in Paris, dogsled in the arctic circle, hiked in the Rockies and all around hustled lived loved and lost (💔🐶) in Brooklyn. I love my body, i love my strength, and both arrived in this place because of all of the living loving losing and hard core question asking and self reflection/ growth I've been asking of myself for a very long time. There have been teachers, books, inspiring moments people and places but most useful has been anything which emboldened my trust in myself. Once you trust yourself, paths to your own wellness become more clear with less anxiety clouding every choice. So this is 36. Stronger than 35, more knowledge, more love, more freedom, more growth, more play, more content, more eager to rest (less ego more self care), more excited to #keepgrowing I couldn't be anywhere else but here + now.