In 8 days I’ll journey back to Cedar Bloom, the old growth piece of cedar forest that hosts @spiritweavers, a spiritual gathering of Women. This was one of the most pivotal experiences of 2017 for me. Over the course of 5 days, I faced many deep seeded shadows surrounding self-worth, identity, self-expression and self-acceptance.
There’s nothing quite like the feeling of deep-healing and the release that it involves. A weightlessness inhabited my Being, and by the end, I too, was running around barefoot and fancy-free.
I remember speaking to my partner for the first time, on the final day of the 5-day gathering... ‘How do you feel?’ He asked. ‘... Free. I’m finally free.’ Integrating this deep healing work can be a struggle upon returning home, when expansive, life-shifting heart opening experience’s happen... and then you return home to the same home, life, partner, and everything else looks the same as before you left.
Often life is experienced anew, and from there we start making changes to mirror the shifts we feel internally. Integration is a REAL process and it’s important to have other women or people who are able to hold space for you, even though the changes often aren’t physically visible.
When this photo was taken, I remember standing on the hillside by my tent watching the joyous dance take place. My heart yearned for the confidence to strip my clothes off and join them. The clouds came together, as if to watch their celebration, and rain started to fall. It was truly a beautiful site. And yet, I wasn’t able to muster the bravado to strip down and join them! One thing is for sure... even deeper levels of clarity are to come, and I’m for sure getting naked and joining the dance this time!!!