Well this certainly wasn't in my plan. Everything happens for a reason though, right? Once I got past the shock and pain and anger at myself and overwhelming fear of my ambulance/hospital bill - I could feel that. Underneath everything there is a constant current of energy reminding us that there is a higher plan. That we are supported. That even when a situation seems unfavorable, there is a bigger picture we may not be able to see. So I'm trying to trust and lean into that feeling, even though right now I really don't understand what the upside of a totaled car, fractured ribs, and crushing debt could be. 😂😭 But I do absolutely know that it could've been much worse. I blacked out for a second because I hit the airbags so hard (my chest looks like it's covered in hickies lol) and when I opened my eyes everything was blinding white. I was briefly confused about whether I was alive or dead but then my senses came back and I realized the white I was seeing was not the other side (😹) I could smell burning and started choking on the powder from the airbags. My first thought was, "Holy shit, these things saved my life". And I'm grateful for that. I'm grateful no one else was hurt. I'm grateful that of the many stupid times I have neglected to wear my seat belt, last night wasn't one of them. I probably wouldn't be typing this if it had been. I'm grateful for my best friend of 22 years who asked only "Are you ok?" and "Where are you?" and drove two hours to me without me even having to think to ask. And maybe that's the only point to this - that in struggle we gain perspective. I guess I'll have to wait and see.