After last night, I can't stop thinking. Every single day I think about jack, every fucking day I wear his guitar pick, when I'm uncomfortable or sad or anxious I hold onto it and slide it around the chord, I've actually almost gotten his initials tattooed on me. I've lost so much faith in humanity over the years, you've been the only man in my life for over 2 years. And everyday you keep me pushing forward, you make me smile, you bring so much joy to my life, everyday I wonder where would I be without you ? And I just wish I could wrap you in my arms and protect you from the world...but I'm 5'2 and made of jello. I just can't express how much I love you more than I already do. You are my everything, and even the thought of losing you hurts every part of my being. I can't get you off my mind all day today, more than usual. I appreciate you that much more today. And I pray for your safety. I only wish I could save you like you save me.