“By the age of twenty, Simone de Beauvoir had chosen a path that she increasingly realized would condemn her to loneliness. ‘I can’t get rid of this idea that I am alone, in the world apart, being present at the other as at a spectacle,’ she wrote in her journal. ‘This morning… I passionately wish to be the girl who takes communion at the morning mass and walks in the swing certainty… The Catholicism of Mauriac, of Claudel, … how it’s marked me, and what place there it is in me for it! And yet I do not…wish to believe: an act of faith is the most despairing act there is and I want my despair to at least keep it’s lucidity. I do not want to lie to myself.’”
— Tête-à-tête: The Tumultuous Lives & Loves Of Simone de Beauvoir & Jean-Paul Sartre
This is super relatable for me. Ugh, reading this book makes me wanna reread Memoirs of a Dutiful Daughter by Simone. The way she speaks of herself and her choices, that self-awareness and determination, especially in the times she lived when women were expected to be a certain way, is inspirational but also for myself, it reassures me that I am fine in my unconventional life choices.
There isn’t a life plan that fits everyone. Just live the life you wanna live.🖤