Alright. Lets talk about 2017.
With no exaggeration, it was the worst year i have ever experienced.
My brother died, my step dad has terminal brain cancer, i had tons of fake friends use me and lie to me. It wasnt great. And on top of that, i was extremely suicidal and depressed.
Lets talk about May 20th. I went to the ER because i did not care if i lived or died. The next week (the last week of sophomore year) was spent in a hospital near columbus.
Now when i came back from the hospital, i was on my moms watchlist. This didnt really bother me because at the time, i thought i had friends that would understand me.
Well. A lot of people are shit. Especially in high school. No one actually cares how you feel as long as they are getting benefitted in some way. Now that i am out of high school and have many of those shitty people blocked, i finally feel like i can prosper.
Basically what im saying is #YouAreNOTAlone if you feel hopeless and want to disappear but sometimes you need to do things (even if its not conventional) to help yourself get through it. Life sucks but you gotta push through things to get to the better part.