Some people closest to me know that I struggle with the concept of living/being, "in the moment". I constantly focus on the past, or get overwhelmed by the anxiety I feel about the future. Time is not relevant, the past could be a few hours ago, the future could be the same. Very rarely can I be, "now". My best friends/closest family members know, how important music is to me, emotionally it serves its role like it would for anyone else, but for me, quite often, it quiets what I refer to as, "The Noise". It's not a literal noise, more like a metaphor I suppose... music helps me focus. The holidays are a great time to visit with, and see the living family members or friends we all have. I struggle with the holidays, they're generally very depressing to me, because I think about those that I miss, and will never see again... for weeks leading to the day itself, and especially on the day of.
Avenged Sevenfold is one of my favorite bands, I listened to a lot of music today, but, "So far Away" struck a chord, I needed it today. I'll never forget those I've lost. And I really hate that life has taken you away, and I'll never get the chance to hug you, say hello, see you smile
or tell you that I love you, one more time.
RIP: Nanta, Aunt Sharon, Auntie CRS, and Nan, in particular, as well as to everyone else along this journey of life I trailblaze.
#gonebutnotforgotten #avengedsevenfold #holidays #family