After not even attempting anything more detailed than a doodle on an envelope over the last 10 years, I broke out the pencils with @gabypyon and did some little scribbles. The sketches I did of her make her look like an alien grandma, and while this doesn't really look like my man Rod, I feel I at least got his attitude down... #BenjiDoesArt
I'm trying not to let myself get frustrated and discouraged. Looking back over the past art that I still have, I haven't drawn anything since around August 2007. So, yeah, it's been a while. But it's difficult not to be annoyed that I can't seem to make my hands create what I see in my head. I don't want hyper realism, I don't want people to question whether the things I make are a drawing or a photograph. I want to make something for me and be satisfied with it. Looking at the work of a lot of others, and Gaby too, it's like they've snipped off a tiny bit of the soul of what they're drawing. It may not look like a minutely detailed realistic recreation, but it looks like it really lived and was real. I feel like the things I draw have no soul. And I'm trying to let go of that frustration and allow myself to suck for a while because there's no other route to the plains of satisfaction than to go through the forest of suck.