this is hard to write but i’ve been mia for so long, but you all are still here and i think it’s only fair that i give a proper explanation even if it may not be enough. i have edits to post tbh but for the first time i don’t want to press the publish button.
this year has been gruesome in more ways than one; i had to learn and relearn what it means to be me, what it means to love, what it means to truly live. i haven’t found an answer; i guess i never will but i’m finally giving myself the time to just breathe without expectations. i want to revisit the pain and hurt i hastily treat because life has been on the go for a while until now. and as such, i didn’t have time to focus on this account or any of my creative outlets ( eg @benitajr ) for the matter.
i don’t know how long it will take me to rest and then figure things out but i do know i love marvel and that this acc has gotten me through so much growing up; i wouldn’t abandon it without any explanation. i’m not abandoning it now either but for now, i won’t be coming back at least for a while.
if you choose to stay, thank you. if you choose to leave, thank you. you all are the reason i write this. happy holidays; i wish you all the very best x