this is the man behind the curtain, my heart n soul my son Ryan Thomas Dalton diagnosed 2004. He is now 16 and reality has hit me. Ryan will live with n be supported by me tell I die. His bother Brandon has promised me he will do the same when I’m gone. We get little support/help from his mother. The last 2 years hv been the hardest for me, the cute little autistic kid is now an awkward man. I hv been trying to get AutismMx going again but I cringe when I open your emails for shirts. Today I hate every part of Autism with my complete being, my soul. It stole my son, it stole Brandon from having a brother and most of all it stole Ryan’s life. It’s not cancer, his not dying, I’m not looking for comments, I’m venting. Today n what must hv been the last 2 years I hate Autism. I hv been a mess, finding reasons not to do anything other than work. What causes Autism? We all hv our own theories, was it from me, did I put him in this place? Sorry abt not getting the shirts out n not doing events. We are trying, we hv a group that are helping me, but I hv been hiding from them. Today I F’ing hate Autism. I hate it. I’m working on getting my sh!t together. AMX is not done, Ryan won’t let it.