It's been quite a while since I shared my mental/physical health journey with you guys and thanks to @elletayla's most recent post, I was reminded to never stop speaking out about what I am most passionate about. I have been at every spectrum when it comes to my mental and physical health. In the photo on the left, I was constantly starving, cold and depressed. My hair was falling out, I pushed everyone close to me away and to be honest, that whole year of my life is a blur. I had lost sight of reality and my priorities in life, and my mind was completely controlled by numbers, food and being perfect. Fast forward a year or so on, I overcome my anorexia, but was unable to find a happy medium and began overeating all of the wrong foods. I no longer moved my body in any way and while I was certainly healthier than I had been when I was ill, my body was still begging for me to treat it with the kindness and respect that it deserved. I still wasn't happy within myself and I believed that this was all due to my weight and appearance, but nowadays I know how wrong I was.
It took me years but I finally realised that loving who you are is a lot more in depth then the number on a scale or how you look in a bikini. So here I am today, the photo on the right - no, I am not the most toned girl with the best abs in the world but do you know what I am? I am happy. I am healthy. I am fit. I am alive. I am lucky. And I am really proud.
Don't get me wrong, I still have many a day where I feel down and unhappy with my appearance but the difference is now I tell that silly part of my brain to 'f*** off' because I realise that, that stuff doesn't matter one single bit. I have the best family, the most incredible boyfriend and wonderful friends who love me no matter what, so why the hell shouldn't I love myself just as much.
I can run 20km, I can lift weights, I can box, I can push my body - because now it respects me the way I respect it. And I think that's pretty freaking amazing.
So here's your reminder - if you're waiting for that wake up call or that sign that now is the time to take control of your health then this is it. Make memories that count and make yourself proud ❤