If you're spinning right now. If you're head is so foggy you can't concentrate. If it feels like there are fireworks going off inside your brain. If you are thinking about so many different things that no strand of thought seemingly has a beginning or an end. If you're worrying about everything. If you're apologizing for no reason. If you feel that rush of fear dancing through your body. If that pit in your stomach won't go away. If you aren't feeling worthy. Deserving. Hopeful. Motivated. Or loved.
This is for you.
This is your reminder to slow down. Put a lid on your thoughts. Bring everything back to your body. Close your eyes. Feel the earth beneath your feet. Feel the fabric of your clothes on your skin. Feel the sunshine on your face. Mindfulness. You are here. These things, these things are real. Tell your thoughts, "I am not going with you today, I am staying here." Bring it back to your breath. Breathe in deeply through your nose and exhale through your mouth. Everything is okay. Everything will get done. There is nothing to worry about. No rush. No expectations. Just you and your breath.
A friend of mine and I recently talked about how important it is to slow down during times of distress. My therapist even reminded me Monday the beauty of bringing everything back to my body- feeling my seat beneath me, my hands on the steering wheel (we were having a phone session on my way home from work). I found myself spinning this past weekend. I was repeating, obsessing, ruminating, worrying, apologizing, crying- I was a whole mess of everything. I had so much going on in my brain at once and never did I remember to just pause and breathe. 6 years into therapy and I stilllllll need reminders to slow down and bring myself back to myself because I am so guilty of accidentally allowing my thoughts to drag me through the mud and then wondering how I got so dirty. So I've been practicing that this week. I made a list of things that need to get done. One at a time. I'm being present. I set intentions. I'm not letting myself mentally multitask. I'm staying in this moment. I'm taking care of me. I'm reminding myself that when all else fails I still have my breath.