🚨WARNING🚨 ESSAY INCOMING... My brilliant pal @katherine_ormerod has written a book #whysocialmediaisruiningyourlife As part of it she’s been sharing (actually re-sharing) pictures that she once posted but this time with a bit of truth talking.
This is a throwback to me 5 years ago frolicking around the streets of London town for a shoot for Japanese Vogue (WTF) 😝 London was so SO alien to me at that point , I was coming over here with a smile on my face knocking on doors and showing up every single day. Meanwhile I was working for myself in Ireland, trying to build a career in both countries and not really believing I deserved one in either. I was so hideously lonely, I couldn’t find my way around the Tube, I felt constantly out of my depth & I was riddled with self-doubt. I was blindly focused and so terrified I would fail that I didn’t have time to do anything on a personal level... my relationship was under strain, my friends had lost me and my family, although supportive, did wonder what the hell I was doing it for.
I was not even 30 and was close to being burnt the f*ck out! I felt like it was too late to build something, too late to “get a break”, too late to make a go of things & I spent a lot of time deeply regretting the lack of focus I had in my twenties. Really it was a lack of confidence, a lack of belief in my own ability. This very big smile was hiding a very scared little chancer!
Anyway. Point is. People looked at me & thought I was living the dream & I was really, blissfully ignorant & nothing to lose, I just wish I could have enjoyed that time more, I didn’t feel I could ever admit that fear on here. It’s not what social media is about but maybe it is? Therapy session over. Thanks gang 😘