Dear Universe, I feel like you have been trying to tell me something lately. I have let you steer my ship most of my life, and it has been wonderful. But lately everything I seem to want, and want with all my heart, seems to be stamped with a big red CAN'T HAVE across the front. Sometimes it's because I decided to leave it to you, and it was just not meant to be. Sometimes my dreams involved people who you decided had a different fate, than to be a part of my dream. And sometimes it's because you gave me two choices, with which I could only find one answer, with one result that, quite frankly I hated. All of these places, all of these dreams, all of these loves, and lives that you have steered in a different direction, has utterly broken my heart. Yet you have also done something else. You have presented me these doors, with opportunities that I CAN HAVE. The only problem is that I am still so scared to want them.
So dear Universe, I will take the hint, I will walk through these doors you have opened for me, and although I am terrified, I will give it my all. But I will also warn you that I want to captain this ship now. Though you control the ocean, I am going to push as hard as I can to make what I want happen. I hope you're ready.