Being strong and calm for someone else when you are terrified to death has got to be the hardest thing I've ever done. I had no choice two nights ago when we experienced one of the most horrible events in our lives. An earthquake shook our house so strongly that my eight year old calmly woke me up to tell me what was happening. Going down the stairs as the shaking got worse and we got more nervous I could only think of a divine help to take my hands and open the doors for me so we could go outside, because I sure knew I couldnt do it by myself.
Feeling the earth move in a way that in a few more seconds would have taken us down, looking at houses and street lights sway side to side like they were made of paper, hearing the house crackle, the dogs barking desperately, the car alarms on, people yelling at other people to step outside fast, my son crying and screaming scared, vulnerable, defenseless, and just staring at it all, without any possibility to help, to change the course of events, to fix anything, made me feel so small, so powerless, I would just hug him and repeat over and over again: this too shall pass. Even though I wasn't all that sure about it.
Fearing for your life is awakening. However, the whole thing has left me so imbalanced, so unsettled, so disperse and untrusting that I just don't know how to recover properly. Last night I spent half an hour sitting on my mat, grabbing the earth, touching the soil with my hands, with my legs, with my feet, with my forehead, with my root, trying desperately to stay firm again, to trust the land we walk upon and build up from, to ground myself back again somehow, trying to align myself with the earth like I remember I felt two days ago without even noticing it. We take so many things for granted, so many.
To you mother earth, forgive us for being so inconsiderate, so selfish, so abusive and so unconscious. We are sorry for disrespecting you so deeply and taking you from granted too. We love you, we honor you and we bow to you. Thank you for being compassionate enough, for feeding us, and for sheltering us since forever.
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