i haven't posted for a few days & i hate the fear i get of becoming ~irrelevant~, so here's a beautiful picture of Brigette Bardot. she also suffer(s) from extreme depression. depression has such an ugly stigma around it. it's confusing, it's lonely, it's scary & it's depressing, damn it!•
•you don't know //w h y// you feel sad, but you do. i've had anxiety for as long as i remember, and i'm finally - s l o w l y - gaining the coping mechanisms to deal with it. i've been on & off anti-depressants since i was 16, and i've just started a new prescription. i'm hoping (praying?) that it's a right fit to balance out the chemicals in my brain. anti-depressants are tough because after a while, they make you feel numb, with NO feelings, and your feelings-fueled brain makes you feel bad for not being able to feel bad. the truth is, you should be able to feel bad when you're supposed to feel bad, but you shouldn't have to feel bad all the time. so here's to all my chemically-imbalanced pals out there; goodnight. i love you.