almostbenjamin almostbenjamin

445 posts   825 followers   643 followings

Benjamin Labajo 

Sister #3 started it.
I miss this feeling.
#family

Surround yourself with people who make you brave!

Backstory:
We both wanted to jump. Of course I was scared. But seeing how @kim.deok.ho didn’t show a hint of fear, I braved through standing behind him while waiting in line for our turn. I felt so brave I couldn’t wait to jump! Right before his turn he turned to me and said: “Kuya I’m scared.” 😱 I replied: “I’m only being brave because you’re being brave. If you’re gonna tell me now that you’re scared then I’ll be scared too.” So he turned around, climbed up the stairs, straight through the edge of the plank and jumped. I followed immediately after.
Unfortunately no one captured that moment. So we jumped again 😁 this time making sure someone was filming. And we dragged @msprissy04 along with us!

BGM: Rollercoaster by Bleachers

Today my sister Janet and, hours later, my bestfriend Gino responded to one of my Instagram stories asking why I don’t post on my regular feed anymore.
I made up reasons: feed aesthetics, lack of material, too lazy to shoot, not wanting to post family photos on my public feed, pressure to be on par with every other grammer out there.
But the real reason is because I’ve always wanted my feed to have a positive vibe; to be inspirational and motivational. I used to be the go-to person when friends needed advice and my feed was supposed to be my platform for a bigger audience. However, for the last two years I have not been in the best place. And I felt like a hypocrite encouraging my followers when I myself can’t even walk the talk.
I was in and out of the dark. Half of the time i felt like I was at the top of the world, the other half I was miserable as f*ck. Half of the time I was out being sociable, the other half I wanted to shut everyone away. Half of the time I was in love with the world, the other half I cursed with every step. Half of the time I was a dreamer, the other half a realist. Half of the time I was a believer, the other half a skeptic. Half of the time I was a DC fan, the other half it was Marvel. Wait, that’s probably for a different post.
You get my point. I wasn’t using my power the way i wanted it and instead I was releasing the negativity affecting me. And it was not good.
So why post today? Not because I was told to. But because half of the time I wanted to close my eyes and never open them again and the other half I woke up early looking forward to the day ahead. I may not want to wake up early everyday, I may not always wake up looking forward to the day ahead. But the important thing is that I still wake up everyday because I choose to. Because i know that there will be bad times but there will also be good times. That with every darkness comes light. I just have to take it day by day.
Last week I had a high moment. I was with family. Surrounded with love. It was short but meaningful. I look forward to the day when we will all see each other again.
For that and for them, I wake up.

The best part is when you are learning from one another.

Pleasing other people
Trying to be somebody else
I get LOST
📸: @nivramchannel

Breaking my Instagram feed for the following rant. Still feeling pumped from today’s great session at Fittin It’ Fitness (and probably from the energy drink) so I’m just gonna ramble on.

I just watched John and Leon’s latest video on their @theleanmachinesofficial Youtube page and it perfectly sums up why I haven’t posted anything on here for almost three weeks. Particularly on the ‘Most Social Media is People’s Highlights Reel' segment. As I browsed through my SNS feeds these past few days, I felt like the upcoming posts that I had prepared weren’t good enough. The people that I follow weren’t inspiring me, instead they were intimidating me. And just two nights ago I saw something on Snapchat that made me feel like shit. But that’s okay because you are allowed to feel like shit!
In fact, I’ve been feeling like shit these past few days. Maybe its due to the fatigue from moving apartments, or being too overwhelmed thinking about bills, but definitely SNS played a big part. I went through my stress-depression routine where in the past five days I made poor food choices: pizza, spaghetti, rice, pork rinds, ice cream, cake. I broke over a month’s worth of healthy eating. On days when I didn’t have sessions, I used to do light cardio but I didn’t do any of that over the weekend. And naturally, I went through my go-to routine of listening to melancholy songs; this time around it was courtesy of @harrystyles' solo album.
There is nothing wrong with scrolling through your SNS feeds from time to time but what we need to keep in mind is that just because people you follow on SNS post something interesting, eat something scrumptious, do something intrepid doesn't necessarily mean you have to be doing it too. We all encounter different circumstances, are presented with different situations and go through different processes. You make use of what you have. You take something ordinary and make it extraordinary. (#Bosconian)
John puts it out accurately when he says “Understand that what you see, 99.99% of piece up on social media are highlights reel." (Tap link on bio to read full rant)

When traveling with your two best-friends:
One takes the photo while the other bombs 😎

Most Popular Instagram Hashtags