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♍️ Warrior;  🌻🍄Twenty-four 🇦🇺🌈 This is a diary of sorts, I guess 📷📝 .Blurry's The One I'm Not.

Day one in sub acute: I am exhausted from all the anxiety 😅 been ready for bed since about 3 this afternoon but I didn’t nap so hopefully I can sleep through the night without too much trouble from being in new surroundings 🌻 funnily enough the group tomorrow is on anxiety so I came in just in time haha
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Been letting this little dude explore the great outdoors. Ugh it plays on my anxiety that he’s not going to come home or something will happen to him but so far so good lol 😅 Also yesterday I found him on the roof too scared to get back down. He’s getting adventurous 😍🐱
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Waiting to hear about when I’ll be admitted to sub acute. There’s no waiting list so it shouldn’t be too far away. I’m terrified as I’ve just been in Wollongong hospital also for a few days for my physical health and I was only away for 2 days before I completely freaked out about being out of the house 😓 nothing like absolutely crumbling and not being able to put 2 words together in front of a bunch of doctors. Serves me right for trying to hold it all in, insisting that I’m fine and not tell anyone what’s going on though lol the best part of being so low though is that you can always move onwards and upwards, so here’s to accepting help and doing just that 🌻🐢 #autoimmunedisease #chronicillness #peritonealdialysis #spoonie #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdrecovery #eatingdisorder #ednos #anorexianervosa #anxiety #depression #ocd #anxiety #agoraphobia #dissociation #depersonalization #derealization #cptsd #recovery #recoveringaussies #edsoldier #edfamily #insta

Had an appointment this morning and I ate lunch at the beach so I could try and process that I just agreed to go back into sub acute because it’s way past time that I give myself that break and try to get my ass back into recovering. Was nice to be out of the house and extra nice to put my feet in the water even though a massive wave came outta nowhere and got up to my waist so I had to hang out with a wet butt until I got picked up haha. Anywho, today I took a massive step and now I think I might just spend the afternoon crafting or gaming because I’m all anxietied out for today 😅
#autoimmunedisease #chronicillness #spoonie #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdrecovery #eatingdisorder #ednos #anorexianervosa #anxiety #depression #ocd #anxiety #agoraphobia #dissociation #depersonalization #derealization #cptsd #recovery #recoveringaussies #edsoldier #edfamily #insta

Been a bit distant, eating disorders being a big old bitch at the moment. But I’ve been trudging on, spent the last 3 days up in Wollongong doing more training for my dialysis. I get to just hook up to a machine and let it happen while I sleep as of next week, which means I don’t have to think about it so much though the day which is fucking fantastic. I’m so excited to have my days back that I don’t know what to do with myself haha I’m thinking about starting a tafe course but I don’t want to overload myself straight away, especially when I have a lot of work to do to get myself mentally well again as well as keep myself physically well. Ugh keeping myself alive is very much a full time job atm 😅

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