A few weeks ago, on my birthday, Kevin and I were attempting acro-yoga while bumming around our airbnb before dinner. With zero coordination skills in my body, I fell mid air, and landed on top of him. We laughed, giggled really, while Kevin tickled me as he made fun of my clumsy body. As I laid my head by his, I was taken aback by his sudden serious demeanor. "You know one day I will find the words to tell you how much you mean to me, right?" he said. Unsure of why he turned so somber, I yelled out: "BABY! That's so sweet!!", to which he responded, with an even more serious look: "I'm not joking love. One day I will find the words to describe all the ways in which you've changed my life. It may take me a decade or two but I hope you know I will find them one day." I immediately cried, and over the last few weeks I've thought often about these words he spoke to me on my birthday.
Today is Kevin's birthday, and I, just like he did, feel like I'm at a loss for words to accurately articulate the ways in which this man has changed my life. Words, and certainly Instagram captions, feel like they cover a mere sliver to describe the depth of my love for him. Over the last seven years, I’ve tried many times, in Instagram captions and birthday cards, to find the words, but over the last few weeks I’ve been finding comfort in the idea that maybe I never will. That my love, and our love, is too infinite to hang any set amount of words to. Too vast to be interpreted by common language and too expansive to be limited by any alphabet. Maybe love isn’t supposed to be translated through characters and signs, but instead, to be felt in the spaces where words cannot exist. Like when I fell mid-air when we attempted acroyoga. I knew I would land, safely, in his arms, like I always have since the day we met. Words will never do our love justice but I know that in this life and the next, he will catch me when I fall, and I will forever know that his arms are the safest home I’ll ever own. Happy birthday, my love. I’m so grateful for you.