Cause sometimes it takes a little bit of leaving to find some meaning
I hope you’re ready.
I’ve been depressed since I was a teen. The level had escalated substantially into my twenties. My depression had reached an all-time high. People I had loved were gone forever. My heart had been shattered. I lost control and I spiraled.
Almost 2 months ago, I attempted to end it all.
I thought my life had no meaning. I thought I was worthless. My depression had taken me so deep into the darkest places I have ever been. I lost friends, I lost love. I had felt so alone. I felt like no one cared truly enough to miss me. The light would dull and burn out and I’d fade away and everything would be okay after that. • •
I still have moments of deep depression. It never fully goes away. I’ve had to make changes in my life that help with my healing. Not everyone is the same, demons come in many forms. Not everyone heals the same, you have to find something that brings you happiness. I had to find my way - which included removing myself from anything that would trigger a slip. I deleted my social media and essentially stayed away from anything that I thought would hurt me. • •
I’m not here to provide exceptional motivation. I’m just here to say you’re not alone. It’s hard and tumultuous and you’ll feel so low. I’m here for you, though. • •
Thank you to all of my loved ones who stuck by me and cared for me and loved me despite my trying to push you away. I hope you know how much I love and appreciate you all so dearly.