I am afraid, and it's ok.
I am also safe right now.
A few days ago we passed by a major road just outside of Ubud and Anna noticed the picture of a big swing with an open view over the jungle.
It looked amazing and my first thought was "Oh this looks so cool , but pretty scary, I'm not the kind of person that tries on these things" and we moved on.
However the image stayed into my head and I felt a pull to give it a try. I'm quite scared of height and lately my body has been going into fight/flight mode pretty easily, but when I thought of the swing I felt excited, and it gave me a sense of expansion and freedom, so I reserved to do it this morning !
And I had a blast, it was exactly what I needed. There are 3 swings of different heights from 5 to 20 meters, and to my own surprise I did all of them and loved it!
Before getting on the third one my heart was beating fast and I was afraid, but instead of pushing the feeling aside I embraced. I stayed with the sensation of fear and I acknowledge it by saying in my mind "I am afraid, and it's ok" and every time it made me realize how actually safe I was in that moment and how my mind was playing games.
It felt liberating!
Did you have a similar experience lately ? Of doing something out of your comfort zone and realizing that the fear in our head is often times much greater than reality ?