As everybody knows it's 2018, I am not about making resolutions because we should always be trying to improve ourselves. Making ourselves into better human beings. But this year, I'm trying to trust more. Now I am definitely not looking for attention or anything. But I have a hard time letting people in which is what I need to work on. The summer in 2014 I was raped, I was sexually assaulted. I have only told a couple of people. Enough where I could count it on one of my hands. I kept that secret to myself for the longest time and buried it deep inside. I never talk about my life but, here I am. That event was a main factor as to why my depression was and is as bad as it is. I've struggled with depression since the 9th grade but I was naive and put myself in situations which cased it to be worse or so that's what I believed. I have struggled with trusting people especially men because I have been hit by past boyfriends. Manipulated. Mentally and emotionally abused. I have been to the point where I have tried to kill myself multiple times but did not succeed and have hated myself for years. I have been wanting to be happy for the longest time. Last year I started to travel around the United States. I got a fantastic job in the health field which is the place I want my career in. I also started going to the gym after I got out of yet another toxic relationship. I know I am a better person because of past events. These events helped and caused me to be the hard working young lady I am today. I have been going to the gym to help build muscle. I am here to make myself a better person. I am finally feeling good about myself and the hard work I've put in. I am making this post because if I tell a little part of my story I'm hoping it will bring others to do the same. I've almost deleted this while I've been writing and building up the courage to do so. But, if I don't share this now I never will. I want to thank @laurensimpson & @paigehathaway for motivating me to work harder at the gym. Here's to more self improvement.