I am feeling truly, for the first time, both overjoyed and at peace with where I am in life and what I have been manifesting into my reality. Abundance, adventure, stillness, peace, gratitude, harmony, purification, balance, acceptance, love. All of these manifestations tie into my constant evolving relationship with myself as well as other people, and a complete faith in the Great Unknown and my connection to Source (or God, Creator, the Divine, higher frequencies, whatever you may call it). A theme in my life has been self-abandonment, a reenactment of events I experienced as a child that shaped my belief system about myself. I am now committed to my relationship with myself, always and forever.
Our shadow aspects and our light aspects can be in harmony with one another if we work on our relationship with ourselves, if we are present to our needs day by day. It is not my goal to suppress or avoid my fears, but rather to invite them in and care for them as I would a close friend. It's been so easy for me to get caught up in the feeling of lack, of blame, of shame, of feeling stagnant. I've battled depression for as long as I can remember. I believed the Universe was unable to provide what I wanted because I felt that I was not deserving, or that I'd always be striving for some unattainable goal. It is still and maybe always will be a battle for me but the whole point is that I have no desire to suppress my feelings anymore. I want to use my shame to my advantage by facing it and accepting that not everyone is going to accept who I am and that's okay. I have doubted my ability to mold and shift my thoughts, and I spend so much of my time running from myself. Facing myself and being completely present with myself is the best thing I ever did. And the journey only begins here, in each moment. The Now is all we have and I am going to channel all of my energy into movement, into flow, into allowing.
I accept myself exactly as I am.