This is a long one but it’s truth... With so much mental health awareness, and shootings, and anger, I felt compelled to share.
FOOD IS MY MEDICATION. The smile on my face means everything is ok! It means everything is perfect right?! So many people think so, when they see others and their smiling faces, everything must be so great and perfect, right?? Sometimes that’s not the case.
Everyone comes from different backgrounds. Sometimes we come from somewhere, from our childhood, from abusive relationships, and more, that have taught us to make the outside look better, so that we can cope with the inner turmoil. I grew up with sever anxiety and depression. Panic attacks, crying, confusion, and wanting to isolate myself. To this day I still struggle with TRUSTING... I give everyone a chance and let everyone in, but that is on the surface, my inner trust is like a tightly bolted box with all my hidden secrets, fears, and an abundance of compassionate love.
I think when someone has been through a lot, their compassion and love can in default still pour through some, but the fact is, a smile doesn’t wipe away hurt. Sometimes, We may have no idea what people are going through.
As an adult, I deal with my depression and anxiety, now a days, because I am old enough to be on my own and support myself it’s easier to understand and go forward through my emotion AND keep myself Out of toxic situations and move forward in my mission of Love. These feelings don’t define me anymore, other than when random triggers occur, that bring me back to that long ago constantly sad place.
BUT today, I have wayyyy less anxiety and depression because
1. I CHOOSE TO. I do everything in my power to see the good.
2. I EAT COMPASSIONATELY; plant based, since 9 years now. I no longer eat depressed, sick, and anxiety ridden living beings. I was able to slowly wean myself off depression/anxiety medication (with help of professionals) 8 years ago, after I had been plant based for 1 year. I’m fully free of medications because food is my medication. YES, I still have depressed days and times, but I work through them and I’ve learned 2reach out, instead of bottling up my sadness. Cont....