Yesterday I spent literally 8 hours trying to produce a song I heard in my head but could not figure out once I started to go into the actual mechanics of programming it. I found this amazing Orchestra Staccato string sample that I desperately wanted to use but the tempo was some weird fraction of a number and whenever I went to program the drums I heard in my head, it just would not line up. I was very frustrated for most of the day. To the point where I wanted to punch myself in the face, #nojoke .
But I refused to give up. It's part of my identity to find a way not an excuse. It would have been EASY to just drop it but there is nothing in the identity that I have CHOSEN that says take the easy way. So today, I got up at my usual schedule of 6am and started working. The more I failed at it the closer I came to an answer. Finally it hit me. I wasn't going to be able to program drums. I was going to have to actually play/record something that was going to give me the sort of Tribal sound I wanted. I went from room to room, hitting every surface. Trying to emulate drums but to no avail until I remembered, "Hey, my brother has some percussive instruments". So I drove to the family house and I tried every single one in every fashion. With my hands, with a stick, open palms, fisted knuckles, hitting from the rim, the corners, trying the top, the bottom, in the middle, I did this for a good while until I got something of satisfaction. Now it was time to record.
Percussive instruments are murder on the hands+back. And you know what's even more frustrating; having obscure sounds pop up in the background. Everything from my father slamming doors close to Maya, our family dog, barking up a storm. But after a couple of hours, I got what I wanted. Maybe not as crisp as if I programmed them, but I got it. And that's what this post is about. Finding a way, NOT an excuse. I demand success. So if you ever feel like giving up because it's hard or you can't figure it out or maybe you're feeling lazy..come back to this long ass post for inspiration to keep working. As cliche as it sounds, if there's a will there's a way. You've got the will. So find a way. Fuck excuses 🖕