What happens to your mind when you trap it in denial?
For a little while, you think that the air around you is breezy, the light rays from the 6 am mornings also seem bright, you believe that comfort food will get you through the night, or a hot shower with music in the background will touch your soul. In short, you automatically condition yourself into believing that no matter what happens, you'll be okay at the end of the day.
But is that really what your mind needs? Distraction?
I was an advocate of all of the things above but I'm learning the hard way that sometimes the only thing that helps is if you embrace the reality of your thoughts, the depth of your feelings about the x and the y and the world, the pain and the fear lurking in your subconscious mind, and the anixety which runs most of your day. It helps when you can finally see through yourself and go to bed thinking of that one thing you could win over, rather than the thousand distractions which helped you live in denial.. It helps when you give yourself enough space to emote all that you're feeling but actually see yourself doing 0.1% better at the end of it.
I know it all seems too much but we're all here with our perfect identities laid on a platter on social media. I guess sometimes laying your thoughts on a platter and working on them one at a time will help you more than living in that shielding cloud of denial. The day you see your wings is the day you'll never ever be the same again. Till then, just wake up and try again?