mental health is something I’ve been striving for most of my life. some days, I wake up anxious and scared and spend the whole day trying to stop my heart from racing, and the feelings of extreme fear and stress. some days, I wake up feeling numb, and I can’t get out of bed, or do anything other than stare out the window and maybe cry a few tears. the contrast is huge - depression causing me to completely turn off and feel nothing but grief, or anxiety turning my fear and stress levels to overdrive. the fear of forever feeling so little, or the fear of forever feeling too much. sometimes I can fight my way back to level, sometimes I need help, and can’t seem to do it on my own. I’m sharing this not for sympathy, but because this is one way I’m fighting these illnesses. for a long time, I struggled in silence. there are stigmas, and thoughts you believe : “I am weak. This is embarrassing. People may think I’m being dramatic, or should “man up.” That I shouldn’t be such a failure etc etc” it ends up being very isolating, which can make it that much worse. You don’t want to be a burden, or to admit to needing help. I’m sharing to say, if you relate to this at all - you aren’t alone. you aren’t weak. you deserve happiness. we are doing our best, and that is immense strength. I understand, and I support you in your journey to find that health.