I've spent the majority of my life hating my body. I have abused it in so many ways. The first time I thought I was ugly and fat I was five years old and had just started kindergarten. One morning before school I was getting ready in the mirror. I told myself I was ugly and fat, and I believed it. From that moment on, for years and years, I started a downward spiral into self-hatred and negative self-talk. I deprived myself of food, I did harmful drugs, I drank myself to sickness, I cut myself - anything just to feel different.
Today my body is a machine - it's not just here for looks. It does extraordinary things for me because I now treat it with the respect it deserves. I spend time every day appreciating and loving myself, trying to make up for lost time. I no longer allow my brain to talk to my body negatively. When I think back on how long I hated myself, it brings tears to my eyes. I feel so bad for that person. I was so cruel to her.
You deserve self-love. Do whatever you can to find it. It will always be a work in progress, but you have to start somewhere.
Thank you, @sicimages, for helping me see my beauty, inside and out.