Ok, so I got a workout in today. I did a kind of workout I used to do all the time that I enjoyed and yes I did push myself but I can honestly say that felt good during and after it was done.
20 MT Climbers, 10 push ups, 10 shoulder presses
10 lateral raises, 10 hack squats,15 burpees...Repeat 3x
20 MT Climbers, 15 DB bent over rows, 10 shoulder presses, 10 DB rear delt flyes, 15 squats, 15 split squats.... Repeat 3x then did 15min on my treadmill. Simple, fast pace and this only took me about 45min. What I was trying to get into on my story (my phone kept stopping my recordings) is how I have been struggling this past year with loving myself and just choosing to be happy. I had slowly started to lose the joy of working out because of multiple things. It started to feel like an obligation and just straight up wasn't enjoying the process. I was working most of my days this past year sometimes going a month or 2 without a day off. Working 10+ hour days.. Doing so I hardly ever had any reset days or days where I just had time to sit, think, and recharge. This caused me to never have time to feel anything it seemed. I didnt have time to feel upset about something or feel frustrated or even enjoy happy feelings cause I was always on the go. I have had quite a few break downs..let me tell ya... Everyday felt the same.
Just recently I asked myself, " why am I feeling this way and what needs to change for me not to feel this way anymore?"
Took me a while to figure it out but I realized it was partly because of social media. Anytime I was down and stuck in negative thoughts I turned to social media. I would look at others posts and see their lives and think why can't life be that easy for me? Why can't I be as happy as all these other people? Why am I not as determined as so and so to get to the gym? And so on.... I started to not feel ok with WHO I AM. I truly think social media causes a lot of mental health issues amongst us humans. They say its for staying connected with friends and family but I highly doubt you all talk to every person you follow or that is on your list of 1,000+ friends.
To be continued in comments.....