When you lose the two most important people in your life in just a matter of months, the grieving process can be tricky. They are two totally different relationships, and they impacted your world in many different ways. I felt it harder to grieve for my brother than my mom, and still do, because of his history with drugs and alcohol. It chips away at who they are, and creates a totally different relationship with that person.
Dennis’ addictions definitely aided in a rift between us, but anytime i felt myself slipping away from him further, I was reminded that he loved me, his little sister, more than anyone in this world. And despite the challenges, we still had the most special bond. I carry that with me every day..and though his grieving process is one i’m still grappling with, even 4 years later, i know he’s truly at peace, free from his anguish, and can participate in my life now, better than he ever could on Earth. I love you, Den | 4.20.14