FREEDOM. I think freedom is something that grows, kind of like love for another...I thought I loved my husband on our wedding day, but three years later I feel the love I currently embody for him is more than I have ever known. I hope that my capacity to experience a greater depth of love and freedom never stops surprising me as I become more open to them. A couple weeks ago, I know I felt freedom. To preface, I have performed on many stages and walked away feeling quite different each time. Sometimes proud, vulnerable, bleeding, laughing, crying, embarrassed, full of purpose, strong, connected, shameful, insecure, and sometimes I could even say free. Freedom is something that I don't believe can partner up with a soul if that person's level of awareness, judgement, and control are gripping their mind away from the present. I have always struggled with overthinking and personal doubt which in many shows has stolen my chance to be held by Freedom. A couple weeks ago, I decided to put on a show. I was the only performer and my audience was a sunflower. I danced, I laughed, I cried, I stood still, I felt the wind, I truly saw and was present with my surroundings, and then as I looked through the trees I saw a young girl named Maggie and her father at a picnic table watching me. I thought freedom lived in a space where I could control the thoughts and judgements of what is around me by choosing to only surround myself in my safest place/ nature, but what I realized is that freedom is in my own mind. Freedom is a trust in myself, and a trust that I am being held by the divine, in which together I am a reminder of awe and a wave of relatability if I allow myself to truly be seen. I gave sweet little Maggie my sunflower and thanked her for watching me with such an open heart. That is a moment I will cherish forever. Freedom met me right where I was and showed me that it will never leave, I just have to be willing to trust long enough to get to hold it back.
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