My mind keeps playing the same trick on me. I wake up or walk to a room, and I expect to find her, sitting on her bed, the floor, or wherever's comfortable, making Mickey ears. She sees me, or Jackson, and calls out in her enthusiastic voice, and everything feels like it has, like it should, over the past thirty years. Only now, there is no voice, no her sitting there, bright, excited and beautiful. All that exists right now is a dull aching as the reality sets in each and every time.
Emily Garcia was so many things to so many people. For me she was a world-class traveler, a smart and powerful woman, the best sister a guy could ever ask for, and a phenomenal fairy godmother and aunt to my son. I could go on with even more, but right now my mind is reeling with the pain, the grief, and ache that comes with this loss.
The world feels a little dimmer today, but at the same time, I am thankful. I'm thankful that I was related to and got to call such a wonderful soul my sister for three decades. I am thankful that the time that I was allowed to have with her on this earth was time well spent, filled with family vacations, backyard memories, and holidays spent at home, helping each other open presents or eating food around the dinner table.
The last three years were hard for her, I know that. Yet throughout it all, when she received bad news, she would cry or get sad for a day, and then she was over it, her teeth clenched, her eyes resolute with determination. She fought tooth and nail every day of her life to carve her own path. I will work for the rest of my days to ensure that I can present even the tiniest iota of the strength, resolve, and tenacity in my day-to-day life that she showed every second of her existence.
Emily, thank you so much for the love, affection, strength, compassion, and all of the other amazing gifts you gave to me, Heather, and Jackson throughout all of the years that we have each known you. I love you little sister, now and always. I hope that you knew before you left us that Jackson will always know about is aunt, the warrior woman, who fought so long and hard so that she could meet him, and make his life magical.