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Lydie Roth  I FIGHT CANCER (Stage 4 Sphenoid sinus Cancer,Non-Hodgkins Lymhoma T-cell,Nk-cell) I DO CALISTHENICS No matter what ,Trying to be Positive

I hate how people are thinking look she posted butt pics, she is healthy,wtf if not this world who is going crazy on butt pics I won't post it,if I have butt it don't make me healthy unfortunately,if my ancestors would give me proper future I won't post butt pics or have Instagram,i would be private person,but no instead of having normal future I have cancer, which makes me feel disgusting pain, instead of some people supporting me,I'm receiving txt like ""hey wanna see me naked"" ?no I don't want to see naked man or woman in my Dm,İM Terribly ill and sometimes I don't speak about this but I may die because of cancer, sometime I just hate how I live.
All my life I was told that everyone deserves to be happy and I must forgive everyone who offended me or my family,but I understood by myself that not everyone deserves to be happy,there around alot of bad with very very bad thoughts,and making them happy means supporting evilness,and supporting evilness makes evilness even more stronger, evilness will destroy everything you love if you will not stop it,so in result bad people must suffer and nobody must be forgiven for their bad and evil things,that's why I don't believe we must forgive someone who did evilness, I don't believe we must forgive people at all, nothing happens by accident,I must fight cancer and I must always know and remember what kind of mistakes my family did that I come to this level asking people for money for treatment,when my ancestors could pay for others treatment,I can't pay for my own now,I must pray for people who helped me for them for their kids and grandkids,for all generations. And others all who offended me must suffer in all generations in the name of G-D
MY FUNDRAISER LINK IS IN BIO,IF SOMEONE WANTS TO HELP ME NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WILL APPRECIATE ANY KIND OF SUPPORT
#fuckcancer

Handstand = Fuck Cancer Stand
Honestly, I'm practicing handstand last 3years, firstly I was able to only hold 1sec because I was feeling Terrible pain in head,now I can already hold 20seconds, yesterday I holded 15seconds without wall it was amazing after so long time of trying,I finally saw progress,even if I needed 4years to see progress I didn't give up
I want you not to give up on your dreams,no matter what kind of dreams do you have
MY FUNDRAISER LINK IS IN BIO #fuckcancer #handstand

Simple caption,just because I decided to post more, unfortunately I'm feeling very weak and tired and again throat hurts me alot
My fundraiser link in BIO
#cancersucks #calistenia #calisthenicsworkout #fuckpain #fuckyoucancer #fuckcancer #cancerihateyou #calisthenicsgirls #calisthenics

Mostly sadness,loneliness, depression is what I'm trying to deal with everyday,along with pain,I can't understad why I'm so ashamed to ask for help in fundraiser,it's all because I want to help people by myself,I think I was born to take care and to help alot of people,and now G-D showed me that people who are dealing with cancer need help the most,but how I can help someone if I'm very strongly sick and fighting with death everyday,that's why I'm asking money for treatment,to stay alive and receive ability (after becoming cancer free)to help others as (many of you) good people helped me
MY FUNDRAİSER LİNK İS İN BİO and I appreciate any kind of support even if it's 1$
Thank You for being with me
#fallendynasty
#fuckcancer #cancersucks #cancerpatient #nonhodgkinslymphoma #ihatecancer #ihatecancer💔 #instagram #instagirls #beach #sun #blackandwhite #favouritecolours

WAKE UP ! FUCK CANCER ! Repeat !
I can't understand why my suffering is endless,why I was suffering in my childhood,why I started having cancer,when I was even never smoking in my life,why I quit breathing with my nose, everything was going only in one way in death way,but I'm not dead than for what I'm alive if I'm suffering, suffering from pain is almost equal to be dead,it's terrible to be me,it's terrible to have cancer,it's terrible to have life as I have...
BUT I DIDN'T GIVE UP AND I WILL NOT GIVE UP(UNTIL IM ALIVE)
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About treatment,I I'm not taking chemotherapy treatment right now,and I'm not doing any radiational treatment,I'm doing only immune Suppressive medication, which is also effecting my body (something like chemo) it affects immune cells to stop producing T cells,it is used in one in a million case,it's not my fault that I'm doing this medicine,it's not my fault that chemo isn't option for me,Not every cancer patient does chemo,and if I don't do chemo it doesn't mean that I'm fxcking healthy or I don't have cancer, unfortunately in this treatment I'm paying more than getting chemo,but one good thing that mostly in drinking pills and not injecting something,not every cancer patient does chemo,not doing chemo doesn't makes me healthy,I'm very sorry for everyone who is doing chemo or any alse cancer killing medication
#fuckcancer
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#fuckcancer
MY FUNDRAISER LINK IS IN BIO,and this is for buying immune Suppressive medication,to stay alive,to keep myself alive not for having fun, because I'm not having F.U.N in my life at all

Happy 4th July, to all my American supporters,I'm actually mix of 🇫🇷/🇩🇪/🇨🇭/🇩🇰/🇮🇹/🇪🇬/🇮🇱 Nationalities 🤔 so this makes me feel like 🇺🇸,im so happy by support of every single one of you,from around the world,I can't even believe how many good people actually helped me,I'm so thankful, Everytime when I'm receiving donation,I'm crying and saying Everytime that look good people who actually cares about me EXCIST,who actually cares about will I get my treatment or I will not,this is amazing that you made me believe that good people EXCIST,may G-D BLESS YOU and your families forever,for helping me in such a bad situation in my life,may G-D send Blessings and gifts to all of you,who are standing with me in my difficult journey of life
MY FUNDRAISER LINK IS IN BIO
#fuckcancer #happy4th

I don't know why, but people are thinking that I'm happy person that I'm happy to have what I have,and some of them are texting me that they want to be me,or to have something like me, firstly I'm one of the most cursed person in the world,I have very rare and very bad cancer located in my head,I'm drinking medicine that can kill people (people with normal immune system)I'm feeling pain everyday and I'm feeling pain even with painkillers,I'm trying to deal with pain by working,but my progress in working out is very miserable,and this makes me feel even more terrible,I wasn't breathing with nose almost 8years of my life,not breathing at all(using mounth) for breathing,now at least I'm using my nose,but I'm wearing mask,to avoid any attention to me and my not healthy (unsimetrical)face,I hate mask as part of my body,but being laughed I hate even more, because it's disturbing me,and after what happened to my ancestors I feel that I can never be happy in my life,that's how I live,I'm very serious complicated person,who was never happy in whole his life,never, and no matter what I do,I still don't like myself and I'm feeling that I can do much more,no matter how much I workout I feel that I can do more,it sucks to have cancer,all I wanted to say, BE YOURSELF , BE THANKFUL WHAT YOU HAVE, ANALYZE WHAT YOU HAVE, For WHAT IT'S GIVEN, To RECEIVE MORE,Pray for G-D to GIVE YOU MORE, TRY to BE BEST VERSION of YOURSELF, WITH CANCER or NO YOUR LIFE IS WORTH IT, TRY to be HAPPY no MATTER WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU in your LIFE, I HOPE ONE DAY I WILL BE ABLE TO HE HAPPY,AT LEAST TO BE HEALTHY (ITS ALL WHAT I WANT)
MY FUNDRAISER LINK IS IN BIO,(IF SOMEONE WANTS TO HELP ME, NO MATTER HOW MUCH,IM BLESSED BY YOUR HELP)
#fuckcancer #fuckyoucancer #cancersucks #cancerpatient #cancerwarrior #cancerihateyou

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME , Today on June 22 1996 12.00pm I was born,I turned 22y.o today,from 22years of my life,I spent 10years living with cancer,with pain,with whiter skin,with lost melanin and with defformed cheekbone,also I lost ability to breath with my nose,until I didn't start breathing in 2015again,now thanks G-D I can breathe and use my nose,but unfortunately I'm still sick, Sphenoid sinus is still infected by cancer,I still need medicine and treatment,that's why I opened fundraiser and I'm helped by alot of great people G-D bless you all,who are taking part in saving my life,My fundraiser link is in BIO,if someone wants to donate even 1$it will be very helpful to me, because I'm collecting it for my treatment which already costs alot,and every help is blessing to me.
MY FUNDRAISER LINK IS IN BIO
#happybirthdaytome #fuckcancer

I always seem to be powerful and confident,but in reality I fight with strong pain everyday,pain which may kill alot of healthy people and somehow I even can do workout, because muscle pain compared to sinus pain near eyes is nothing,alot of people wants to be like me or to have something like me,but it's terrible I'm person who is everyday feeling pain,who can't effort even cancer treatment for himself and if not your help ( who help and cares about me) I would be dead 5months ago,it's nothing good in being me,I have body I can't work,I have brain I can't work,I only have cancer and I can do abit workout sometimes (it's miracle)I can't do something and all because of cancer,I feel cursed
I hope this crazy horrible shit will end soon,and I will be able to finally end all this curse and evilness which I received
My fundraiser link is in BIO,one day I hope to help(do something good) for all people and their families who is helping me in my hardest time in life #100yearssincecursed #100 #fuckcancer #cancersucks #ihatecancer #cancerpatient
NEVER TRY TO BE LİKE SOMEONE ELSE,EVERY ONE OF US İS UNİQUE BY OUR OWN,CREATE YOUR FUTURE BY BEİNG 💯 BEST VERSİON OF YOURSELF,BE YOURSELF WHO DON'T LİKE YOU THEY CAN FXCK OUT !
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I was feeling very tired last week,so tired I thought I will not make it to this week,but thanks G-D today I'm better and even did workout,NOW I PROMISE TO POST EVERYDAY
MY FUNDRAISER LINK IS IN BIO,I WILL BE TRUELLY BLESSED BY ACCEPTING ANY AMOUNT OF HELP FOR MY TREATMENT
#fuckcancer #cancersucks #cancerpatient

This is me and I'm not hiding something,I'm just hiding defformation caused by cancer,it's so hard to me to just life, handle all this pain and disturbance which comes from cancer and connected to it things.
Cancer makes your life miserable and makes you feel like hell on Earth
My life saving goal is 7k money on which I still need to go,it's very important for me because it helps me to get medication,so if someone wants to help me even with 1$I will be extremely happy to expect all donations
It was always very hard for me to ask for money,I started fundraiser when my money was almost completely over,or before 2years ago when I started Instagram I was always rejecting any material help because I thought I will be healed fast,but more month I'm sick more money I spent,so if now I will not get medication unfortunately I will die,that's why for me any kind of help and support matters
G-D BLESS YOU PEOPLE WHO HELP AND SUPPORT ME
#fuckcancer #fuckyoucancer

Body POSITIVE IMAGE ⤵️
Of course my health isn't good example I'm very sick person who is feeling throat pain 24/7 ,there is no such thing as a perfect human, humans ain't Angels they can't be perfect,now what we see
on Instagram are girls full of silicone sh!t, I'm not even going to do silicone in half of my cheekbones to have Normal face again, because injecting stupid unhealthy stuff can't make me healthyer and can't free,it will only do worse I will be even more sick and I will never pretend that I'm okay,now sometimes when I'm working out I have such idea hey I'm almost healthy,but after I look at my skin tone which is at least 3times whiter and my disgusted unsimetrical face,I always remember that I'm not okay at all I HAVE CANCER.AND I can't forget about it until it will not dissapear and will become completed healthy and finally will have first day in last 10years WITHOUT PAIN.
I don't want someone of you to think that you're not beautiful only because other woman are recording themselves only in several angles or injecting silicone everywhere,most ugly people are those who are trying to show silicone as their natural,(I wish one day they will get cancer instead of all innocent kids)who are suffering from pain everyday,yes this people who are laying to people to reach fame must be cursed forever !
MY FUNDRAISER LINK IS IN BIO,WHO WANT TO SUPPORT ME NO MATTER HOW MUCH,I WILL BE VERY THANKFUL
#fuckcancer
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