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xrestless_dreamer_ My mind is cluttered,
My senses are sharp.
I wish this would end..
I can still feel the dark..
- Your Restless Dreamer..
#RestlessSleeper #Poetry #Writing #Darkness #Night #Trees #Forest #Metaphor #Sad #Sleep #Why #Alone #Dark #Voices #Guilt
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Normal Becca Woodhouse
weebecca23 Please don't go to work mummy. #cute #guilt 3h

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veggiesoul So the other night I cooked a veggie curry and it turned out amazing, of course I ate with rice and a lot more than pictured. Anyway I'm sorry for being so negative lately but seriously I don't fucking know what's going on with me lately. I feel so fat, worthless and lonely and I'm getting these days on which I just wanna quit this lifestyle and go back to restricting and everything because I can't handle this fucking gain weight anymore. I'm so tired of being fat, SO SO tired;
I've been fat since I can remember and shit I just don't wanna live like this anymore, I don't wanna feel like this anymore and I don't wanna look like this anymore. It's so sad yet so true that we live in a superficial society and lately I've been like getting this "I'm not an interesting girl" feeling plus I'm fat so shit I just feel so lonely all the time. I do have friends but you know it's complicated and I feel so awkward when I meet new people because I'm so boring and ugh so people only like me when I'm drunk so like I feel like I need to drink whenever I'm out because otherwise no one will like me and I'm just so fucking tired of this, I just don't want live like this anymore and I want to be happy and I don't know be healthy and pretty and fit and confident. You know like two days ago I binged and the other day I had two vegan muffins so my digestion is fucked up and I'm so bloated and I feel so heavy all the time oh god, and sometimes I feel like I eat so much like seriously more than freelee and I feel so guilty and I can't control myself I just keep eating more and more because I don't know how to listen to my body because I've always had this fucking attachment to food and like food is such a huge part of my life and I just wanna go out and make memories and live my fucking life but no one seems to want to do it with me and I can't fucking exercise for another month and seriously I'm sorry for this probably no one is going to read it but I don't care I just needed to let all this shit out of me because I'm feeling miserable right now
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  •   tinkerbellee21 It's ok to let it out darling. It really is, you have to. But don't let it bring you down and back in to the illness. You are not fat and there is more to you than your eating disorder. You just have to fight to shut away the eating disorder to let the real you come out 5h
  •   fruitfueled Take a deep breath! How does your body feel? I don't mean what your mind makes you feel about your body, but how your body itself feels. Is there a weight on your chest, a knot in your stomach... What does it remind you of? Be curious and try not to impose your thoughts on it, be open and curious. I know this feeling oh so well, but we are more than our bodies. Your soul is precious and beautiful and your mind tricks you into thinking that you are boring. I don't believe you are, that voice in your head has expectations that you don't meet bc they are too high and crazy. You don't need to be a superhuman to be loved. Everything it needs you have in your soul! Now, tell that fucking voice in your head to shut the fuck up and to stop making you feel bad! You are wonderful. Trust me. 4h

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Normal Zellene Ramirez
zilly51 Night mommy and daddy where ever you are. #guilt trip 7h
  •   loriramz Aww!! Good night!! Love y'all!!! 7h

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diamondmuscle 6days post comp .... Got it all out of my system ... Well, the sweets atleast. I am sure there will be plenty of alcohol and burgers over the off season but I am itching to grow now and get some good clean calories back into me. I had moon pies post workout and found myself wishing it was chicken and rice instead, that is the single, when my natural guilt sets in, I know Steve is back. Time to start killing it and set my sights on 2015. #guiltisgood #guilt #6dayspostcomp #2015hw #npc #bodybuilding #offseason 7h

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depression.__.quotes Tbh I sat like this once at night when I felt like my world was coming down and I was just soo depressed and sad thought about self harming and suicide.
but I just kinda calmed down and realized that life is gonna get better someday and I didn't self harm or anything like that. #ednos #ed #eatingdisorder #sadteens #suicide #selfhate #selfharmmm #selfinjury #secretsociety123 #secret_society123 #ana #anorexia #depressed #depression #depressive #depressedquotes #depressionquotes #worthless #therapist #binge #broken #bulimia #bloodyhands #needskinny #mysecretfamily #mia #guilt #cuts #cutting
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keepmindscreative What I get for watching documentaries on Bukowski while contemplating life. #blah #mywriting #thoughts #idontknowproblems #indecisiveness #errr #guilt 8h

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