somtodayI did a pretty impressive job holding myself together up until the last time you hugged me.
time was running out and I really don't know what's the best way to spend it, all I know is that I don't want to waste a minute of it. we got back to your room and I make up this theory that if I stay awake and look at you the whole time, eventually I'll get sick of you and it'd be easier to say bye. that didnt happen. I fall asleep. sometimes later, I open my eyes. I see you sleeping, the empty room and the soft sunlight that leaks though the blinds. time is up -it occurs to me. I started crying. I tried so hard to not make any noises. after a bit I fall back asleep again. I still don't know was that a dream or did I actually woke up and cry. all I know is that the pain is real and it's there. I wish the saying bye to you part was a dream, but it's not and life goes on. I wish you happy and more happiness, don't be afraid. I'm missing you and I want you to know that I'm here for you, now and always.
I have faith in you to not fade away.
love you franco.