sawadainstagramI never wanted to be part of that type of thing,
never wanted to follow the pattern of tradition
I drove up to Nevada, alone
I am in Nevada
I felt that I wanted to so I did
I would turn around when I felt like it.1w
sawadainstagramI am convinced writing will save me. Writing will save me and I will never have to step my foot inside a shrinks office or sit in a group of weary-eyed-heavy-medicated strangers and talk about our shit feelings. I would lie anyways, I would downplay my ‘socially-unacceptable-feelings’ and would fabricate my joyous day of successfully buying a carton of milk and eggs without the thought of blowing my brains out. This will excite them and they will all cheer and clap for me. ‘Yes Lauren, you have succeeded in a simple day to day task that a child could do, without wanting to kill yourself or cry in your room for hours’ they will think, and I will stand amongst them in my fake glory. Head held high. I am much too poor and inconsistent to visit a shrink every week. Monday, I will go throughout my day, not feeling real – more then likely unresponsive to anyone or anything. Then, as expected sometime during the week, perhaps wednesday, I will have seen something that I will obsess over. I will love it. Without a doubt, wednesday night, I am on the floor of my apartment going through this overwhelming emotional roller coaster. Shrinks -I begin to hate the bastards anyways.1w
sawadainstagramlong day , head hurts , decided coffee would trump any sort of real food. Of course !
she shifted everything in my room, a good shift, a cleanse , feels new .
i am shy with my heart .
best friends are soul mates ,
we have this sort of unspoken agreement :
what is it
cosmically aligned / similar souls::
honesty & purity
someone gets it,me,this,that
no words exchanged ,
this is incredibly refreshing
reread this 13 times2w
sawadainstagrami am lookin' for good rainy albums ?!/the devil and god are raging inside me for this morning/,, divin back into my deep-rooted spirituality finally,,after months of hiatus . positive vibrations , negativity is too heavy , too heavy ,, be nice to those around you , make an effort to make strangers believe there are good people in this world - give um hope , , happy wednesday !//can't wait to see my babybabe @alwaysgold_\\2w
alwaysgold_ morrissey, my friend. morrissey. broken dreams club. destroyer. /// i imagine this being sang is blue-sy tone. or maybe that's just my current mood. gÖoD viBêZż & i just love you. can't wait for mañana. ps - making a CD for us to cruise to tonight.